I figured it all out

Well I finally figured out how retail makes me feel. It was weird cause I hate it but I find it hilarious to be in the position that I am in. I cant believe how it all happened that I am a retail clerk so when I am in there I hate myself but I still really think its hilarious to look at myself from the outside, or as someone else. Its awesome in its own horrible way. So this is the best analogy to how it makes me feel. It feels like I am watching a movie of myself 2 months ago and in this movie I have horrible diarhea in my pants and then I hug a really beautiful woman really close, if it happened to someone else it would be really funny but for me its just awkward and for her its gross. It makes sense to me.